Well... all that stuff I was talking about doing this weekend... didn't get done! Because I got to spend the weekend with my twin brother (who lives a couple hours away)! I was hoping to get a chance to see him before I left, so I'm very happy that I did. I also got to see my cousin, the one that I've always been closest to. So it was a very successful weekend in that regard. Now hopefully I can visit my sister sometime this week, even if it's just for a few hours.
So...
I'm excited! This time next week I'll be living on the west coast! It's crazy! At times I get so excited that I literally feel like jumping up and down. Like a little kid. And yet it still doesn't seem real. Despite all the packing, it just feels like I'm taking a regular trip to go visit Sean for a few days. My last day at work is tomorrow and yet it doesn't feel like it is. My mind can't comprehend that it's the last day. The last day that I won't see the same people I've been seeing almost every day for the past three and a half years. The last day that I'll really get to talk to the few amazing people I've become so close to. Even though they're old enough to be my parents, I've been able to talk to them so easily about anything: friends, relationships, life, parents, movies, books, silly things and important things. Proving that age really is just a number.
It's weird. It's like I'm feeling so much, I'm almost feeling nothing at all. When will it all hit me? The day I leave my parents in the airport? When I actually land in San Francisco? When I start unpacking all my boxes? Part of me doesn't think I'll get homesick because I'll have Sean with me and everything will be so new and so exciting.
When will I really feel three thousand miles away?
3 comments:
but, wherever you go, there you'll be. :)
i understand that excitement, the one that has you jump like a kid. enjoy the thrill!
Monica - my dad always says "wherever you go, there you are." It's nice to hear that phrase echoed by others!
Andrea - it's probably good that it isn't hitting you right now, it would be a lot to bear, on top of everything else. It will hit you later, and maybe it will be hard, but it will be good.
oh wow. you have such an amazing way of writing. those are ALL exactly the SAME things I was feeling and thinking and questions i was asking when i moved from san fran, which is MY hometown across to florida for my husband... i worked at my job for 4 years and became close to my co-workers... and like you, some were old enough to be my parents but they were still so awesome... and i had to pack and it was all very fast and crazy and it didn't sink in.... and i said goodbye to my parents at the airport and they were waving and my mom started crying..... and thats when it hit me and i started crying and i felt it for at least a few months after i got to florida... the first 6 months were horrible i was really depressed and sad and missed all my family and friends... but its been a year now and i've made new friends .... and i still keep in touch with everybody so its not so bad now... still getting used to the horrible east coast heat and humidity and rain yuck! no weather is like the bay area weather so enjoy! its PERFECT over there at all times of the year! im excited for you!!! :)
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